Soju Night 34

 In the end, I think I just don't like working under a deadline. Even slack ones that I grant to myself.

Click to embiggen Seoul Saturday night.

Back in school homework was rarely done, and if it was done it was dashed off at the last minute. I've since been vindicated by studies showing homework is only mildly effective and then only as a reinforcement of the ideas. A hour redoing what you did in class? Wasted effort.

Sadly, university was the same way. Especially when the professor wanted twenty pages on a ten page topic. A lot of snark made its way in. Sometimes the professors enjoyed the asides because they knew their page length was bullshit too. Most of them had "clinical" beaten into them on the way to their doctorate and thus they lacked the joy of writing.

I graduated. That's all that mattered.

Work? Employers want you to do six things at the same time. This is so they don't have to pay a salary to anyone but themselves. That offends my brain and so I decide what's a priority and what isn't. What isn't gets left to the last minute. For me that has always been paperwork. More specifically it's paperwork about stuff the boss already knows damned well about.

Teaching EFL that was filling out the lesson plan form that you got from the boss in the first place. That was make-busy work. I deeply hated that and treated as the meaningless thing it was.

Getting back to the point: Eternality has a very slack deadline. It makes me not want to do the comic. It is what it is.

I won't be swapping to a When I Can Be Arsed schedule. I'll be finishing it on the schedule I started on. But it's also going to be done with Story 10. I can push through.

When it's done?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I do have a comic script that I'm working on. Wanting to put in the work for the minimal reward it'll get suggests I won't commit it to paper, but who knows? I do want to get back to doing comic illustrations like the one above. But...

 

The Git Gud Machine

I wanna work pen and paper. It's harder, yeah. But getting it right is satisfying because I don't have the ability to yell, "Fix it, Clip Studio!"

It's like using film with photography. It forces you to get better. I want to get better.

Just without a deadline because deadlines are for chumps.